Places I want to go to when I grow up.

I always thought about where I want to travel to when I grow up. Places I want to visit and try new things out. Things I haven't had a chance to try out yet. Since I was a young boy I made a list where I wanted to travel to and what I wanted to do when I reach those places. So I summed it up for y'all and hope you enjoy it! I know I will.


1-First of all; as soon as I get a chance, I'm so going Sky Diving first! It's always been a thrill to me to jump off a plane with a parachute. Interlaken, Switzerland: Okay so this isn't Mt. Everest but for god sake, these are the snow-capped Swiss Alps! No hefty down payment needed and under $400 (book online), this is one of the most popular spots for backpacker skydiving newbs(Like me). They'll hold your hand for no extra fee and while you won't find champagne upon landing, stay at Balmer's Herberge at the base of the Alps and they'll party your nerves back to normal

2- I'm planning on going on vacation to a few of places I had my mind set to you when I was a kid. I'm a huge beach fan so my heart will take me to those Baby Blue Beaches! Found some of the best beaches around the world and summed them all up for y'all. They're as following: Fiji, Bora Bora, Bahamas, Phi Phi, Bali and Hawaii. I'm planning on going to the Bahamas first on my honeymoon so I'll see the other's work out later in my life.

I did some calculation for nights staying at the places mentioned above. Prices include Great hotels($300-$1000 per night) Food/drink/activities, night life. Prices set for a week and for two people(couples). Not including air tickets because that varies for each country. Price are at the max so you could expect it to be a bit less if you decide spend less.

Bora Bora: Would take around 10k-18k for a couple to have a blast.
Bahamas: Everything included 3k-3.5k
Fiji: Around 3.5k-4.5k
Bali: 1.5k-2.5k
Phi Phi: Around $400-600 a trip to the island daily. Price excludes resort, food, transport, activities and night life.
Hawai: Roughly around 4k

Of course these prices will drop a few $100-$1000's if you decide to take a $50-$150 per night resort.



There's other places with also natural life not just beaches that interested me like The Maldives Islands and The Galapagos Islands.



 

 Did you know that there are 700 type of animal species currently found at the Galapagos Islands? Ranging from penguins, Sea lions, Giant Turtles, Iguanas and even Blue Whales! An amazing place for animal lovers if you ask me.

3- One of my other dream places I hoping to go again to is Disney Land! Although I've been to disney land at Orlando, Florida when I was a child, I'm still planing on going again but this time with my own children if I some day have some. One of the most amazing places on earth for children is disney land and I want to give my children the same opportunity I got when I was a child.

Did I forget to mention all the amazing amusement parks there!!?

Well there you have the top 3 places I want to visit someday. Hope you enjoyed reading about it hahaha.

               Happy Birthday to my gorgeous sister <3 Love her so dam much! <3

Best Day of 2013

A few days ago was one of the happiest days in my life. It was my crush's Birthday. She did a pool party at her house and me & my sister, Farah, were invited. It was on June 30 Sunday. She told me about it around a week before and I was excited to go. I started planning out before a week what should I do if I go, Should I say anything? Should I show her that I still love her? or should I show her that I moved on? Those questions kept circling through my mind until before I knew it, it was Sunday. The party starts at 3:00 PM so me and my sister woke up and bought her some cloth. A nice short with a matching top. We got our relative to drive us to her house and even before we were dear, I was so nervous...


Once we got there, Karen came out and opened the door for us. She huged my sister and said Hey to me. So automatically I said hey back. After that short encounter, we went inside her house to the backyard where there were kids already around. We sat there with the other kids while Karen kept opening the door for the new guests. I was basically nervous the whole time but I just couldn't let my self show it. Most people that were there already knew I had a crush on Karen but what the hell, It really didn't matter to me...

So after everyone finally was here, Karen brought us some snacks and then she said it's swimming time. We all changed our clothes and jumped in the pool. The first few minutes it was awkward but then we started spraying each other water and the fun started. After a bit, Karen propesed we play the game where at one person gets on another and tries to push down another group of 2 that did the same. I over heard the girls telling Karen to go on top of me but she neglected and didn't want. Honestly I didn't want either because I don't know... So at the end of the argueing some other girl got on top of me and Karen on another guy and they started pushing each other hahaha. To my bad luck, Karen ended up winning againt us but it was all good. Atleast we had fun right?

So after a while, we all got out and washed off with our towels. In the mean time, Karen's mom brought food on a table and the cake :)





Karen's Birthday Cake <3 She was turning 15 (:

 We all got around Karen and started singing her Happy Birthday :) To me, that was one of the most unforgettable moments in my life. I'll always remember seeing that smile across her face when everyone was singing and she was looking around all happy. All I could say is that, at that very moment, everything was PERFECT.


 After we finished singing her Happy Birthday, we all sat down and ate cake & other desserts. I have to say it was a really delicious cake(: . So when we all finished eating, Karen told us to play Truth & Dare and we all went along with it since she was the Birthday Girl on that day. We all sat in a circle, girls on one side and guys on the other side. So the game started and as usual, the first questions in the game are always boring. Such as "What's your favorite color" or "What's your name". After a while the game started to spice up with questions like "Kiss all the guys on their cheeks" and "Dance on the table". Before I knew it, it was my turn! A girl asked me truth or dare so I went with the truth. She asked me "Who's your crush?"




*At that very moment, my heart skipped a beat. It was like time suddenly froze around me. I thought hard about what I had to say because this was the moment Karen would know if I still loved her or not... I had a few choices... Like... "I don't have a crush on anyone" - "She's not here right now" or "Karen". Slowly in my mind I thought it over and before I wanted to say anything, I looked at Karen but she wasn't looking at me or anyone else, Her had was bow down and she was looking at the grass. I guess it didn't really matter to her and it was like she already knew the answer to what I was going to say... So for the 1st time in my life, I risked it. It just came out. I said "I have a crush on Karen". The new kids were surprised but some of her school friends said, Don't we already know? Hahaha. Well it was a moment and before I knew it, it was gone. I still don't regret saying her name when I was given the chance. After a few spins, the bottle came on me and Karen by fate. But everyone was still arguing about the earlier spin that most of them didn't pay attention to the spindle bottle. But me and Karen both saw it and I am dam sure she saw it. Karen quickly took it off and gave it to someone to re-spin. At the moment, me and her wanted the same thing, not get a turn with each other but later that day I wished I got that turn...


So the game finished and people started going home but I didn't want to leave. I didn't want to leave just yet. Honestly, I didn't want to ever leave.


 Before people started leaving, Karen started opening presents and gave everyone who got her one, a hug. It was very sweet of her and it made me fall for her even more. Eventually it was me & my sisters turn and when she saw the present, she loved it!
(Later her mom even called my sister and told her, if only she got the shorts bigger, she could of wore them too! Hahaha) Well she gave my sister a hug and then she gave me one. My first hug since I got to know her 10 months ago! When she hugged me, the world around me slowely faded and I wished at that very spot that time would freeze forever. I wouldn't mind stay standing like that till the end. It was what I wanted and I couldn't actually believe I was hugging her! In reality, it laster around 5 sec but it was enough to warm my heart.

So people started leaving, we stayed till almost the last. After most of the kids went, we started playing all together with a beach ball, volleyball. It was quiet fun and we were all having fun for the time being. But before I knew it, it was almost 9 Pm and the party was supposed to end at 7 PM and it was time to go. Her little cousins came before we had to leave and we played with them a bit. They were really cute! So Karen took us out to the front door and said goodbye. I had a feeling it was my last goodbye...


From this whole day, I felt that even though I haven't seen Karen for a whole month, sadly, I still love her. I still love her with all my heart and seeing her again made me miss her even more. It was like I didn't even forget anything about her. I was still tangled in her roots of love.


I wish i could tell you how much I care but all I can do is sit and stare. I don't know how to explain this pain it's driving me crazy not being able to let it out I think I'll go insane. You are special to me in so many different ways I don't know exactly what sets you apart from the rest but you've stolen my heart straight from my chest. I'm trapped inside my love I never will be freed. Of the pain I always have. Of this aching, biting need. It hurts because I miss you and the pain will never cease. It'll never let me forget my love. Never give me peace I can't change the way I feel. I'll live with it instead I loved you then, I love you now. I'll love you when I'm dead.

Someday I'll leave and I won't ever come back

One day, I'm gonna wake up, pack up my bags and just go through that door. I'll leave this place for good and follow my dreams. For years I've hoped to leave this place behind, my old life behind and move go where my heart takes me. I feel misunderstood and judged here without escape for it only gets worse by the day. I don't belong here & I don't want to stay here. I'm sick and tired of living day by day with nothing to look forward too.





 

I wanna go to college and meet that one girl I'm gonna spend the rest of my life with. The girl that's going to be the one I'll love till the very end. We'll study and graduate together. Get years to know each other before we take it to the next level and once we do, it'll be the most amazing part in my life apart from my childhood.










I can't wait for the day that I get married. I will finally be able to spend the rest of my life with the woman of my dreams, the love of my life. We'll be happy. We'll have a fun, playful marriage. We'll raise our beautiful children, we'll teach them right. I will always be there for my kids, whenever they need me, daddy will be there. When summer comes, we'll go on family vacations. I'll take everyone to disney land and take them to nice places. I'll watch my kids grow up into fine adults and when they leave to start their own lives, it'll just be me and her. We'll spend the rest of our days living happily together, doing things we've always wanted to do. Things like traveling the world, going on a cruise, and anything else we can think of. Finally, when we grow old, we'll reminisce about our lives. We'll talk about how we first met and all the crazy things we used to do while young. Then when it's our time to leave this world, the love me and her will share will never fade cause a love like that, true love never fades.

Personality Test

Well today I heard my friends talking about them taking a personality test online so I thought I'd give it a try and see what result would I get. I found the questions quiet interesting and gave answers to think I never thought about before in my life.

The results were as following:

Your personality type: "Sensitive Doer"

Quiet, serious, sensitive and kind. Do not like conflict and not likely to do things which may generate conflict. Loyal and faithful. Extremely well-developed senses and aesthetic appreciation for beauty. Not interested in leading or controlling others. Flexible and open-minded. Likely to be original and creative. Enjoy the present moment.

Careers that could fit you include:

Artists, musicians, composers, designers, child care workers, social workers, counselors, teachers, veterinarians, forest rangers, naturalists, bookkeepers, carpenters, personal service workers, clerical supervisors, secretaries, dental and medical staffers, waiters and waitresses, chefs, nurses, mechanics, physical therapists, x-ray technicians.

Tip: Place the mouse cursor over the bars for explanations of the terms.

Renowned persons with similar personality types:

• Barbra Streisand, singer
• Brooke Shields, actress
• Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis, first lady
• John Travolta, actor
• Kevin Costner, actor
• Marie Antoinette, queen of France
• Millard Fillmore, American president
• Steven Spielberg, filmmaker
• Ulysses S. Grant, American president
• Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, composer

 This is the link if you want to try it out maybe (: http://www.41q.com/

My Favourite All Time Quotes

“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,or you can open your eyes and see all she's left. Your heart can be empty because you can't see her, or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday, or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday. You can remember her only that she is gone, or you can cherish her memory and let it live on. You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back. Or you can do what she'd want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”  - David Harkins

I wish you would open your eyes and realize what you have before it's gone.
You keep pushing me away from you and every time I have to fight my way back in.
The fight in me is slowly dying and once it's gone,
I'll be gone too, and I won't be coming back... - Mahmoud El Hallab

Love is when you shed a tear and still want her.,
It’s when she ignores you and you still love her,
It’s when she loves another but you still smile and say
‘I am happy for you’,When all you really do is cry and cry. -Unknown

Another month. Another year.
Another smile another tear.
Another winter and another summer too
But there can never be another you. - Unknown

I trust everyone. It's the devil inside them I don't trust.

He moved on. And I feel sorry for you because he thought you were the most amazing girl ever. If he could have had any girl in the world, he still would have picked you. Now, you’re just another part of his past. A memory more faded everyday. And someday, he’ll find the one he deserves and she will make him the happiest guy in the world.  - Unknown




 When I say I love you, please believe its true. When I say forever, know Ill never leave you. When I say goodbye, promise me you wont cry. Cause the day I'll be saying that would be the day I die.- Unknown




The truth is....
we hide because we want to be found,
we walk away to see who will follow,
we cry to see who will wipe away the tears,
and we let our hearts get broken to see who will come and fix them.. -Unknown


You're afraid to tell people how you feel because it will destroy them, so you bury it deep inside yourself where it destroys you.

"We don’t beat the reaper by living longer. We beat the reaper by living well and living fully. For the reaper is always going to come for all of us. The question is: What do we do between the time we are born, and the time he shows up? Because when he shows up, it’s too late to do all the things that you’re always gonna, kinda get around to."- Randy Pausch

Tears, Idle Tears

 

Tears, idle tears, I know not what they mean,
Tears from the depth of some divine despair
Rise in the heart, and gather to the eyes,
In looking on the happy Autumn-fields,
And thinking of the days that are no more.

Fresh as the first beam glittering on a sail,
That brings our friends up from the underworld,
Sad as the last which reddens over one
That sinks with all we love below the verge;
So sad, so fresh, the days that are no more.

Ah, sad and strange as in dark summer dawns
The earliest pipe of half-awakened birds
To dying ears, when unto dying eyes
The casement slowly grows a glimmering square;
So sad, so strange, the days that are no more.

Dear as remembered kisses after death,
And sweet as those by hopeless fancy feigned
On lips that are for others; deep as love,
Deep as first love, and wild with all regret;
O Death in Life, the days that are no more.

-Lord Alfred Tennyson

 

I wish I could tell you how much I care

I wish i could tell you how much I care but all I can do is sit and stare. I don't know how to explain this pain it's driving me crazy not being able to let it out I think I'll go insane. You are special to me in so many different ways I don't know exactly what sets you apart from the rest but you've stolen my heart straight from my chest. I'm trapped inside my love I never will be freed. Of the pain I always have. Of this aching, biting need. It hurts because I miss you and the pain will never cease. It'll never let me forget my love. Never give me peace I can't change the way I feel. I'll live with it instead I loved you then, I love you now. I'll love you when I'm dead.- Richard M Wofe Thompsom

Broken beaten bruised and battered.

Feelings come and go. People change and grow. Why am I still breathing though? Am I really alive or have I just lost my mind? Watching, wanting and waiting for my time to shine .Broken, beaten, bruised and battered. I'm getting to the point where it all doesn't even really matter. I'll wait but I'm not making it a promise. Because they don't mean a thing anymore. I got these feelings way too fast I know. Overwhelming me to the point of breaking. And yet again I know I'll be left alone here crying and shaking. Broken hearted and having to mend the new cuts and gashes. It's okay don't worry these memories will soon be turned into ashes. I just want you to know though. No matter your choice just hear me now That I'm still not going to understand how How I couldn't fight hard enough for this. Why am I so wrong and yet him so right. I wont leave you in the dark, I wont leave you alone and scared. I'll hold you and show you that there really are people who care. But I cant be standing in the dark alone while you have your time to shine. Because Im more than ready for my time to shine. So all I want is for you to be happy and make all the right choices. Listen to your heart and not all the other voices. It knows what you want even when you think its wrong. Now live your life and write your own love song.



I shed tears to days that are no more. Days when I could honestly say that everything in my life was going just the way it was supposed to be. Days when I actually woke up & went to sleep happy. Days when you weren't in my life.

I can't believe it happened, I tried to stop it but I couldn't. I finally broke, I have no fight left in me. I thought I could keep this all inside of me, all bottled up. I thought if I put it in the back of my mind it would all just go away in due time. I was wrong, keeping all these emotions inside just got too much to handle and now here I am, broken down and defenseless.  I'm in tears, I can't hold them back any longer. Tonight, tonight I'll cry. I'm going to let everything out, everything I've been keeping deep inside.


 


When I miss you the most, It's when you're not around. It's when I text you and you don't reply. It's the moment when sit there waiting for hours until you reply. It's when I miss you but you don't miss me.




          



 Why did you do this to me? I loved you with all I've got but I guess that wasn't enough for you. I tried my best to make you happy but you never cared for me at all. I'm tired of all your broken promises and always getting my hopes up. Now I'm left alone with all the tears and the memories. I hope your happy for what you did to me.

The moment when I can actually feel the pain in my chest from seeing or hearing something that breaks my heart.

I fell too deep and now I can't get out. I try to move on but somehow I'm still holding on. Everyone says I just have to let her go but it's not that easy, they don't understand. I need some sleep, its time to forget who she was once to me.

 

My First Love

I once knew a girl that meant the world to me, she was just amazing. She was that one girl in my life I would never get over maybe because she gave me some of the best memories in my life and I know I'll never forget them. But I guess love never lasts and now I would I give anything to go back to to the moment when I looked at her, she was looking at me and then she smiled... Everyday I wonder what could of been and what if I was still with her now. I always wonder how she is everyday since I last saw her... Years have gone by but on my mind she stayed.


Everyday I'm moving on a little, getting stronger but I know that I can never forget those moments I had with her because I think I would never have the same feeling towards someone else. But I can't keep dwelling on the past on what could've been. I can't keep hoping that someday she'll come back and we'll have our second chance. I can't keep holding on to someone that's gone. Someone that left.

I can only hope & wish her the best because she truly deserves it. Despite everything that happened, either good or bad, she'll always have a part of my heart but smaller than what she used to have. I don't know and probably never will know if she ever gives a thought about me. But that doesn't matter because there was a point in her life when she did and that's all that matters now to me.

Now and forever you're still gonna be in my heart. I promise I won't forget you but I can't promise I won't replace you because sooner or later I'll find someone like you. Someone that'll make me smile by just being by my side just like you used to be. Someone that'll make me laugh when I wanna cry. I'll find someone that'll care for me even more than I care for them.

Sooner or later I'll find that girl who would carve our initials in a tree. Who would sing our song to me when I was mad at her. Who would hold me when I was crying and promise to never let go.




                      Thank you for everything my love, forever you'll stay in my heart.


                                Dedicated to: Kimberly, the first girl I've ever loved.

Memories, Oh memories...

I still remember the days you were here with me. We were so happy I didn't think it would ever end but now you're gone and you left me here all by myself. You moved on and forgot about me but I'm still here holding on to our memories, hoping someday you'll come back. I know eventually I'll have to move on and forget about you like you forgot about me but I just cant move on because I'm still in love with you. 

It's gonna be the memories that'll kill us in the end.   

I always remember those little moments I had with you. They might not have meant anything to you but to me, memories like those are meant to forever last in my heart.






Why did you do this to me? I loved you with all I've got but I guess that wasn't enough for you. I tried my best to make you happy but you never cared for me at all. I'm tired of all your broken promises and always getting my hopes up. Now I'm left alone with all the tears and the memories. I hope your happy for what you did to me.



Looking back at the days you were sitting next to me, feels like it would last forever. In a blink of an eye, I would go back to the moment we were walking slowly, hand in hand under the pouring rain. You looked at me and there it was again, the smile that I can never resist. Days such as those I'll never forget.



You left me here all by myself and now you're far away with someone else. You forgot all about me and the love we once shared but don't worry my love, all those memories and moments I'll keep them deep down in my heart.






Ones upon a time I gave you my heart..Now it's in pieces and you're no longer around. I know you don't deserve me anymore but I just can't let you go...All those moments we shared will always stay in my heart. Now I'm sitting here all alone staring at the pictures we once took wishing you were here with me, but I know you won't come back and that's what hurts the most.
 



 
I still remember the days when you were here with me. The days I looked at you and you were already looking at me. The days I would wake up and find a good morning text from you. The days you would secretly sneak up behind me, put your arms around me and told me you loved me. I still miss those days but I miss you even more.

I moved on!

You never wanted them to go, but they took the decision of leaving. You see them walk away, but not able to stop them because they are happy. You cry for nights. Upset for days. Not able to sleep, not able to eat. U still wish for them to come back. You see them happy and enjoying every moment with another person. You start guessing and asking yourself this question, what did I do wrong??? You cry...... more and more every night. Getting torchured seeing the one you love with someone else. You start realizing there is no hope for you two of getting back together. You put yourself back together, get stronger and start living life again. Stepped out of your misery and moved on. They realize you are happy and laughing again. They think you never loved them and they didnt mean nothing to you. But you were always there for them and they were always your #1. They get into fight and breakup. They are all alone again. They want someone to wipe their tears away and heal them. They try to come back to you but they watch you from far and see that you moved on and you are happy. They wonder how stupid they were for leaving you and remember every happy moment you two had. They realize that you are such an amazing person. They come back and apologize for everything they put you threw and ask if you can come back again. You stop and start thinking. You want them back so bad but your dignity refuses the offer. You learned from what they did to you. You say no and move on, because you know it will go over again. They love you and then leave you for another person. You feel way much better and relieved. You are special. You know you are strong.


For your information;
You know I was there for you every single moment. You weren't there when I really needed you. You preferred someone else when you had the choice of coming back and start a new page. You better not come back to me with a broken heart and ask for my love, because I'm not going to heal you. I learned from you. You don't deserve me. I once loved you and you pushed me away. I'm not a game you can have me and then throw me away. Nope. My dignity comes first. I'm not coming back!!! I moved on.♥

Quotes for the ones I've loved

Quotes by me dedicated to those that I've loved and made a difference in my life.


Day's will keep on dragging longer but eventually I'll forget about you.


My eyes hurt from crying, my heart hurts from trying. I look so tired & worn out because inside I'm dying. I miss you, I need you, but I'm better off without you. Days will have to drag on longer, but eventually I will stop thinking about you. I wish I knew. I feel broken & unwanted, like it was easy for you to let me go. I trusted you with everything, I let my feelings show. Someday I hope I can look back at this & say I was strong. But only I know I'm not...


It's time for me to let you go, I held on for so long but for what? You cheated, lied, played games, broke promises, and most of all you destroyed me. You tried to come back when things were going bad between you two, but not this time. You know, you were my love, my life, my everything, I guess that wasn't enough. Now you realize what you once had, as well know you'll never get it back. I tried to be friends with you after everything we been through, but that wasn't enough either. I put myself through pain and misery just to have you apart of my life, in return I got nothing. You'll always have a place in my heart but just know you can't ever have all of it. You lost something good and I'll gain someone better. I was once here for you but now I'm done. Now its time for me to say goodbye and I wish the best for you and pray things get better in the future.

I'm sorry. I know we fight, but who doesn't? We aren't perfect. We're gonna fight sometimes. But I'm never going to stop loving you, no matter how much we fight or what we fight about. I just want to let you know that I love you and the reason I'M apologizing, whether I started it or not, is because I love you more than I love my pride. I would rather lose a stupid argument than lose you.



I don't know what's going to happen from here on out but I do know is that I want to be with you. I've told you how I felt, all my feelings are true. You make me smile, you are always there for me, and you are just simply amazing. I'm so happy that I had the privilege to meet someone like you. We get along so well; the goofiness we share and our conversations are something I'd never trade for anything. I know we can become something special, I hope you see that too cause girl I have to tell you, I want no one else but you.



I still remember the days you were here with me. We were so happy I didn't think it would ever end but now you're gone and you left me here all by myself. You moved on and forgot about me but I'm still here holding on to our memories, hoping someday you'll come back. I know eventually I'll have to move on and forget about you like you forgot about me but I just cant move on because I'm still in love with you.




I still remember the days when you were here with me. The days I looked at you and you were already looking at me. The days I would wake up and find a good morning text from you. The days you would secretly sneak up behind me, put your arms around me and told me you loved me. I still miss those days but I miss you even more.